weirdness

we are all weird in our own way.

bubbles is weird.

buttercup is weird.

p2 is weird.

that bitch who think she's right every single time is.

and she is SUPER WEIRD.

who else.

everyone is weird.

if you say you are normal, well, you are weird.

different people look at things differently.

even if it's the same thing.

so yes. we are all weird.

It's Too Late...

it's too late now.

for you to say those stuff.

if you had said so earlier, maybe...

i won't be acting this way.

but what's said and done, has been said and done.

you can't change what i think now.

the most you get is just a delay.

Cheer Up

you know.

the truth hurts.

but i think i got over it.

or so it seems.

the sky is blue. yeah right, with the haze. right

and the sun is still shining bright. god damn bright it is.

why am i even upset?

cheer up like they say.

you'll find a better place.

praying hard. :)

ramblings on a blue monday

it's funny how time passes. one thing goes after another, and it's another week already.

i can't understand why time flies. i'll never understand why.

even if i get up at 8am instead of 12pm, i sleep at 12am instead of 10pm, my chores and work and stuff are never gonna finish.

neverending.

don't tell me the day i die is the day i finish my work.

ohmygod. unbelievable. that can't be true.

i love the days where i don't need to worry bout money or my work. all i need to do is just play my part well. as a student. as a daughter. as a human being.

but now i have to put on extra roles. be the perfect employee. a good girlfriend (which i think i am). a friend. a colleague. in the distant future, a good wife and mother. i guess.

since when is life so complicated for me? the day i left my home? the day i graduated? or the day when i know i can no longer be what i used to be?

some part of what used to be me, left me. perhaps it's better this way. but i kinda miss that part of me. or maybe it got tired, and went to sleep. hoping some day, the owner will remember about them and wake them up from its slumber. but i guess, that day shall never come.

mondays are a bit of a blue day for me. everyone have that too, i suppose.

weekend comes and go. weekdays comes and go too.

what's left?

awaiting for payday. lol.

ironic.

that conflict

sometimes i don't know if we know each other anymore.

i laugh at you because you acted silly and you talk silly.

and you then point your finger at me saying i gave you that silly idea.

and i point it back to you why didn't you use your brains in the first place.

and then you said if you never mentioned about the idea you wouldn't even have done it.

and i told you, why even bother having a brain if you don't use it to think for yourself.

yea.

the conflict that happened within me.

cheerios.

i am alive, dude!

i'm not dead.

if you thought i am, then you are so wrong.

i am very much kicking and alive.

albeit down with a damn flu, cough and a voiceless throat.

say hello to me and i will just smile and wave my hands.

no voice to even say hello.

damn, how to answer phone calls?

jeez. can life be any harder than being sick and need to work like shiat each day?

sniffy eyed

sniffy eyed and all ready to cry.

boo.

crybaby i am.

don't laugh at me.

one day you will cry too.

and i won't laugh at you.

ramblings of an insane half adult

drats.

my long weekend, it felt like it was like any normal day.

hadn't got much rest either.

cleaned the family pc, i didn't play much of my games, i didn't sleep much, what else. hm.

i blogged. i took pictures.

energy draining.

i so wanna get back to my dad this weekend.

pray for me that i will. :)

and without that one person disturbing the mood.

ugh. 4 more days before Friday night hits the weekend.

god. i am such an aunty to be rambling.

am i ever going to singapore this month? huh? am i?